I was driving home one day and I had an interesting thought: an unexamined life is like a fish that lives in water — the fish doesn’t know that it is in water until it experiences the absence of it.  It lives a taken-for-granted life. Strange thought, I know, but very profound. This came to me when I realized how much of my life at a certain point was the image of what I saw and experienced as a child.

I’ve written earlier about the abuse my mother endured and how I unwittingly recreated the same lifestyle when I was a teenager. What I didn’t mention is that I continued to try to recreate that same situation during my first marriage. Fortunately, my ex-husband asked me a profound question during an argument. He said, “Are you trying to make me hit you?”  That was the first time that I became consciously aware of how my actions, unchecked, were leading me to the same abuse I had just escaped two years earlier! Thank God that my ex-husband was clear enough to know what I was unconsciously trying to do –  swim in the same unhealthy, but familiar water!

I also wrote in my first blog that one of the important turning points in that marriage was the realization in counseling that I had choices – my unexamined life to that point had automatically led me to the life that I had constructed for myself. Everyone’s unconscious thinking does that!

Consider how many times you’ve advised friends to stop doing something that you could see would have terrible consequences, but they did it over and over again. You wondered to yourself: “Why do they keep making the same mistake?” The answer is simple: the situation is their “normal.”

We all have our “normals”  or our routines. They include thoughts, feelings, behaviors and self- or other-imposed limitations. These make our lives somewhat predictable.  It’s only when our “normal” is exposed through some change in our routine usually because of an unforeseen event like a health scare, death or some other challenge, do we begin to examine the life that we have built and to determine if we want to stay on  that particular path. We sometimes call these “Aha” moments. I prefer to call them moments of God-inspired revelation.

I believe that God brings people to this place of revelation so that they can choose — to either embrace the new consciousness or ignore it.  I’ve done both at different times in my life: I chose to embrace the revelation that I had to get out of an abusive relationship because I deserved a better life. I have ignored revelation whenever the thought of change was more frightening to me than the new life that was awaiting me.

So, when I consider the actions of people who disappoint me because they don’t live up to my expectations or the people that appear to be on self-destruct like I was during certain periods of my life,  I strive to be a little more understanding because I know that if they never challenge their thinking, their lives will flow along a predetermined path with predetermined consequences.

Like a fish on dry land, it flops around looking for the water that it just came out of because that’s all it has known. It doesn’t stop to think: is this the best water for me? It doesn’t consider, nor can it, that there may be better water to inhabit. Its singular goal is to get back to its familiar water as soon as possible!

Thank God that we’re not fish! We get to choose to pursue conscious living if we’re willing to examine, improve or possibly leave the water we’re swimming in!